BLOODFOWERZ about to shoot first video clip

BLOODFLOWERZ + LISTENING SESSION 2006-03-11

Let’s see – almost 3 years have past since the last time we could yell out with a reliefing shout  ,, Done; Mission accomplished!” You get older, more quiet and more mature – in other words or to get things straight: you turn older and wiser within 3 years. Although this particular and seeminingly neverending moment, that marks the end of a creative and sweating period feels just the same , both exciting and breathtaking, as in each time before. To a certain point, everyday reality of  the being (as well as pretendence) is the ravenous force, which seems to engulf bright visions – but, for sure, no one and nothing can ever hurt or damage the heartbleeding power and strength of real musical and emotional passion. If all the ghosts, all the spirits, and dark forces, lying in wait behind art, and particulary behind the long and yearnfull awaited step into the outside world, would scare or influence me, the bloodflowerz’ tomb would already have been dug…But the powers and the vision, growing and thriving in the lovely arranged garden of the bloodflowerz , won’t scare no storm or heavy rains. In a much more astonishing sense, we are looking forward to carry the new breed to light – just like a little treasure, which is shared with you, which shall be your gift.

A few mini-issues of those mean ghosts and spirits are spinning around our heads – and we wait, 4 both old and new bloodflowerz, to present to a certain chosen number of journalists our newest piece of art ,,DARL LOVE POEMS”– with an ecxitement of teenagers waiting for their first kiss – well, just as far as I’m concerned…. Colleagues Tim, Jan and Jogi seem rather relaxed, sometimes with a little clueless look in their eyes, while I am running around like a madgirl and try to enlist the songs with Alex. Outside, I can hear the  grouch  of many waiting voices. Our very dearest promo-diva Iris promised us, that all our guests were very gentle and interesting writers – which can be confirmed by now;-). But after 3 years, it seems a bit nervshaking again, for sure. Anyway, the first ,jump into cold water’ feels surprisingly refreshing and  relaxed. But there isn’t too much time left. All of the deliciousness on our handmade retro-buffet ( that’s a good space to say thanx to all our little helpers)  - cakes, muffins, salads, cheese-cookies, lemon-like sweets, and many sweet and tasty supplies more ( the very tasty bowle of sparkling and the oriental-style-pop-state-of-the-art decoration are also part of the decorated additionals this afternoon.)

Everybody, including the whole band, keeps waiting excitingly to hear the songs full-length. Iris supplies everyone a song guide with lyrics and comments. Then the listeners are guided to their places, which seem to become more and more overfilled…After that, the master of sound himself, Alex,  and Kirsten welcome the crowd  - and the room is filled with silence – which is torn apart drastically by  violent sounds, shattering from one moment to the other from the speakers.

The ,in own words’-part was about to take its toll now. Some other artists might favour the ,praising my own songs’-attitude, or the skill of interpreting songs, moods and lyrics – as far as I’m concerned, I must admit, it feels rather kind of tricky. As a matter of fact, so many real personal minds and feelings spin around my own head, incarnating the content and the creating process of the songs. So, I’m about to take your hand and will lead you through the depths of Dark Love Poems…

Important in a very significant way for the creating of this album was the new arrangement within the band. After we had parted last year with with Markus, Jojo and Siggi, the further look of the life of the Bloodflowerz was in jeopardy. Never ever, the existence of the band was questioned – just the look itself. About 3 or 4 songs were done with the old line-up.

And I had a real mind, a real vision, of how the sound would be on the 3rd album. The title, however, was already given, when we finished the recordings to ,7Benedictions / 7 Maledictions’. I started to write poems to this subject – and my own privat life and my past delivered suffiecent material and input. Afterwards, I hid myself in a little cage-like flat behind keyboards and pc and started writing songs intensively – I dreamt, programmed, went visionizing, and performed: so, I found the very own amazing aspect of love in all the songs. I felt this process in a very smooth and harmonic sense. Really important was the focus on a deep atmosphere, which consists of beat, harmonies and melodies and tells a wonderful story in the end.

Experimenting with extra-ordinaire instruments resulted in a deeper and wider performance and life-giving process to the songs. So we really appreciated the performance of Anna and Birgit, courtesy of Schandmaul. Having found bass player Jan and guitarist Jogi last summer, we felt a new feeling of belonging together. Their way of playing their instruments was a real enrichment to our sound. We took the time until we went to the studio in January 2006, to find ourselves, to work out the songs and to perform them together to be prepared perfectly for the recordings. Also, we had the chance to use our own ,home - studio’ to do a pre-production. We’re all very happy and pleased with the dark poems. Also, the choice of the Mastersoundstudio with Alex Krull and his assistants was more than a bulls’ eye. But hear for youselves…

We kick off with ,,Sajidas’ Song”, the song with the greatest punk-attitude – and maybe the perfect start to dive into the dark world of bloodflowerz-like love songs. A song about the unbelievability of love, the inexperienced overexeggerating, which is naturaly the way, we are running into our known world. Always having one question on our lips. What is love? We’re looking for answers, see hipocrating definitions getting reversed, until we recognize the invincibility of love and pain. Is this condition to face real love?

Second song is ,damaged promises’ ,one of our favorites when asking for a hit – melancholic as well as drifting and soft. There will be a video to that song, which will be shot early May, which will be available in limited editions, for sure. The song is about the cruelty of silence within a relationship, which is torn apart by the fact, when insight replaces scarries. Once love-born promises are breaking due to lonely silence. So, in a slow and invisible process, love turns to hate, affection to disgust. Fate? Is only pain able to show the state of lost? Maybe love and hate seem – regarding the core within – one and the same. Maybe…but there is one thing for sure: In our tears we have the strength to stand up a new.

,The Last Dance’ is undoubtedly a dance-number, where no leg can stay still. A forging off-beat meets modern melodies. A little wishful reflection of past carelessness. Discreeted moods find their shape once – in words. One last dance, together – a farewell.

Song 4 , Healing hearts’ is, as fas as I’m concerned, one of the most harmonic songs on the album. It expresses the relief and the harmony within, which is felt at forgiveness. Forgiveness means freedom. Forgiveness means healing. Forgiveness frees the soul of chained burden of the past. Ending means a new beginning.

,Illusionary Fields’ takes one to a journey to dark places and moods. Sad and lonely melodies lose themselves in a monotonous rhythm of creeping guitars, conjuring the sun happily ever after in the end. An illusion? An image for the way through a maze. Real fortune – illusion or reality; a dream  - curse or blessing? Can cold and dull reality be taken without illusion? Sometimes we like to flee and escape, like on a wings of a beautiful magician – a lie can be much more bearable as the truth…

The next song starts with the hypnotic melody of a shalm. It is followed like a shiny star, but disappears in the crowd, we’re marching for the strange und unknown – which is actually so close…,Anthem for a stranger’. How could one choose me, for I’m just a face in the crowd. Love turns one holy, the other to belivers.

,Violent Voices’ – tough, violent, with a lack of restraint…Never ever satisfied, never filling, the warrior creeps from battle to battle. Always on the run, on the search for a paradies, he descents deeper to his own hell. Every night, his heart dies another painfull death, but he will move and move and move for sure…

Strings invite thou to dance. She’s supposed to spread happiness, but she’s in mourning. ,The fool and the king’ is about fooling love. How long is the devil to dance, how long is he satisfied with superficialities? Smiling turns to a mask, of which behind the soul is breaking apart. Sometimes we tend to be too proud – too proud to show grief and sorrows…so we keep smiling.

The ballad of the hearts - ,Dark Angel’ is the song, in which the changing to hopefullness and positivity is pointed out directly. Beautiful and perfect – full of yearning, fortunate, the recognizing of the brightest light that shines in the dark though. In dreams, almost unbelieving in the first place, then stronger and stronger, the look in the stars, the loving heart faces perfect happiness, real love. The yearning has come to an end…

,,Queen of the Freakshow’’ – the beat goes through the song like the lonely questions, being understanding and unwillingness, both. How can I realize, what my mind already seems to know, but my heart refuses to believe? Dying hope seems like a lunatic godess, high on a throne in a castle in mind, built in ruins. Don’t try to keep, what you can’t – let it go. Love might return one day.

,Cruel Game’ is about the cruel side of love, performing in  a heartless skeleton of memories wishfull thinking and habits – only to express all the held-back agression and desperation we perceive, by realizing our weakness to let go; the fact of pretending things. Can the desire of love, the desire ofbeing loved be that huge, to make us ready to face everything?

The final song ,Dead Love (A Necrology)’ is filled with pain, anger and helplessness, spinning around feeling lost and endless melancholy. The melodies create an image – we’re standing at the grave, asking what had happenend, in deep inner void. Tears of disappointment. Was it sickness, murder oder slow and painfull suffocation? No matter what, it’s been really bitter…

No matter how gloomy, desperate, full of anger oder really sad the songs pay their bills to love, so much light, positive energies and the drive to keep yourselves alive is part of them, too. Every walk through the deep valley makes you feel the range of your own hearts’ sensibility and your own emotional strenghts more conscious. This journey has shown me that, the greater the darkness in me, the brighter my star…

And I believe, having recognized a bright shinnig something in the faces of the writers, who have been exposed to the final sounds and words of our music. This is, for sure, the greatest kind of gratitude, which can be given to an album…real touching beneath the skin, the feeling, that runs down your spine…and, apart of that, in case of somebody was faking,  we created something really special for some.
The most important part is gone for the moment, there are so many questions to answer. Tim and myself are taking place in a quiet corner on diverse pillows and listen excitingly to the many questions to come. What was spoken there is to be read in the beautiful magazines and online-mags. We wave good-bye of a wonderful listening-party with a toast, shiny eyes and full of exciting feelings looking towards next summer – and, for sure, your mind and feelings towards the dark poems…

Keep the fire ablaze!
Kirsten


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